Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Just thought I would post some of my stuff from college. These are mostly poems and such, but there some of my best stuff. Enjoy!

(UNTITLED)
I gaze at you softly and
for the first time see
things that before had
gone unnoticed. Your eyes
though gentle and kind
give off a slight wickedness.
Your perfectly formed teeth
remind me of a lovely white
pearl necklace, every time
you smile. The way your
clothes move with your body
as if you were born in them,
and the way you pronounce my
name, with such emotion
makes my body shiver with delight.
(BOUQUET OF LOVE)
I cascade you
with flowers from
my shoppe. Teal
roses moisten your
lips to the touch.
Carnations of burgundy,
wine we will share.
The bittersweet taste
sends mums down my spine.
I will caress your
gentle hands until the
night orchids again.
Day and night,
endlessly beautifying.
You are bee, I am nectar.
Forever we will tulip.
(LOVELY WHITE LIES)
THe chill of her breath
envelops the dawm,
her words are harsh
and cold. She hides her
wickedness behind a mask
of beauty.
Her white laced dress
sparkles like diamond
in the sunlight. The song
she sings is a sweet
lullabye that appeases
every ear.
Her silent whisper is
felt by everyone around
her. She lives in constant
sadness but her tears
remain frozen.
She has a deep desire to
do things her way at all
times and gets great pleasure
out of making others miserable.
(This last piece is describing winter in case you didn't pick that up).

Thursday, March 23, 2006


My life has been hectic lately. It's come to a point that now I need to make a decision. I need to decide whether or not I should let someone else watch my kids a few hours a day so I can help out with our investment business. It's a decision I dread, because this has been my dream. I love being a stay at home mother and I love watching them growing and learn from my nurturing and molding. I've been dreading this decision for about two weeks and its got me tied in knots. I hate the thought of someone else (trusted or not) stepping in my place even for a few hours. What's a mother to do. If I don't step in with the office work, we may have some major problems on our hands though. I've been desperately praying that God would give me some answers. Look at her precious face. What is a wife and mother to do? "Lord once again I step before You in anxious humility wondering what I need to do in this situation. Please grant me Your wisdom and send Your Spirit to give me peace. Bless my children, Lord as they grow and help me to continue to bring them up as You would have them. Bless my husband also as we go through this difficult time together and help us to always remember that no matter what, You're still in control! I love You, Lord. AMEN!"

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

So things have been pretty crazy around here lately. I think I'm seriously going through (or am on the verge of) a nervous breakdown. Our finances are terrible, things are very, let's say "unorganized" and "up in the air" as far as my husbands income which of course takes a huge toll on me, because I'm home all day, my baby is already walking, my two year old, as you know, is potty training, and to top it all off, we got another dog. Lately, I haven't had much as far as motivation. I have such good intentions to take the kids out and do things, but in the end, we stay home, hour after hour, day after day. And then I feel worse. I just want to get past this "rut" if you will, that I seem to have fallen into. There's a lot more to it than what I've listed here, but I don't feel like sharing at this point. Anyway, I just hope things start to pick up and Spring comes. I really could use some warm sunshine.